Sunday, July 20, 2008

I've Made It This Far!

This is the farthest I have ever gone in pregnancy. Sam was born exactly two weeks shy of her due date. So, wow.

I am pretty amazed that this second pregnancy, so close to the first one, in which I ran 10+ miles a week until I was 37 weeks pregnant is now going to be longer than my first. And to think, all this time I was worried about going early!

My feelings are, as always, quite mixed. I had a fantastic birthday, just a perfect day really. I spent time with friends, lots of time with R and Sam, saw my family at the end of the day and had a date night with R (and Mar) that included both Gelato and plenty of Christian Bale. And to both I must say: YUMMY.

So, I am overall glad that he did not make an appearance this weekend. Days like that do not happen with newborns. I am trying so hard to appreciate these last few days alone with Sam and R, trying (TRYING!) to get the work I need to finish completed and trying to see all the friends I worry I will not see for months.

On the other hand, I am so anxious to meet this little guy. I can't wait to see his tiny little hands and fingers and toes. I can't wait to know (g-d willing) that he is healthy and that I am healthy through the birth. I just feel nervous about what is to come and wish I had a date. If I knew when, I could relax much better. It is the not knowing, the over-analysis, that is killing me.

I am working on my patience. This morning in Yoga, I even meditated on it. The truth is, he will come when he is ready (I hope--do not even get me started on my new anxiety--going post-term). In the meantime, I am going to try like hell to work and enjoy these fleeting days of just Sam-Sam.

4 comments:

Kristi said...

Congrats on making it to 38+ weeks. It's great that you're spending all the time you can with Sam now. I'm in mourning about the loss of Isabella's "only childom" already, and I (hopefully) have plenty of time left. I honestly cannot believe you're almost done. Where has the time gone?

halloweenlover said...

Wooo hoooo! I'm hoping for your sweet one to come asap! Any day now! Good thoughts for a quick and easy labor. Maybe he'll just fall out?

Good luck! I can't wait to hear details!

Editorgirl said...

Hope all is going well. Very exciting times ahead!

g and c boyarko family said...

Glad you made it...enjoy these last few moments as a family of three! Hope things go as quickly as you would like them to go and that they are as comfortable as possible.